Yesterday I had a nice little confession of my control issues and fierce independence. Letting others help me, has not been a strong suit of mine in recent years. I do things myself. It’s what I’m used to. So when someone offers to help, I usually feel kind of bad (just like when my boyfriend wants to buy me things), so I typically opt for doing it myself. A few weeks ago several people offered to help me carry things from my car to my booth at the market. I smiled and rejected, saying I came early so I could carry it myself. My boy Jason made fun of me for not taking the help. But this is why I love people like this in my life. I NEEDED to hear it. I needed to be prodded. Why do I do this? Put down your armor. Open up. Let others in. Let them help you. It’s so odd, because I will do anything for others, but block it out when someone wants to reciprocate. Why do I have that difficulty feeling like I am deserving of help and gifts? OPEN. STAY OPEN.
Sometimes I just need to JUMP (not just step) out of my self-inflicted comfort zones. Lately I have also been working on the word COLLABORATION. Co-creating with some rad, talented, ober creative souls to make some beautiful art and food. It began when I wanted some new art for my apartment. My boyfriend and I went out searching for coffee, but stumbled upon a huge canvas. As I stood in front of it, I felt this magnetic pull. PAINT ME, it whispered to me. Now, note as my boyfriend is asking me if I want it, the voice is saying yes, but I was shaking my head no. Still hesitant to allow someone to take care of/do things for me. I knew I had to get a hold of my friend Julie to help me create a beautiful piece. Initially we both were full of a kind of nervous energy about the collaboration. It was out of both of our comfort zones. I am known for sketching. I do black and white, realistic shit. Portraits like this below are my specialty and comfort zone.
Julie too is not known for painting. So here we both are with a tray of bright colored paints, waiting with that nervous energy for someone to take the first stroke. The doubt: How are we going to paint this so it doesn’t look like two separate people made this? What is the going to look like? We had the floor littered with inspiration, but had no real idea of what the actual painting was going to be. Deep breath in. Dip the paintbrush in some blue paint. Apply. Plunge taken, we went all in. Six hours later I had this new piece of art of my mediation area:
Fast Forward a few weeks, our comfort zone expanded and we sat down again to create a new, complementary piece:
Gradually it gets easy. Next up, we plan to paint a piece for her apartment. So even though we were nervous, unsure, and completely out of comfort zones, we did it anyways.
Now I am on a collaboration roll. The ridiculously talented yogi baker Cathy at the market approached me two weeks ago. We are getting ready for our Farm-to-Fork dinner to celebrate the market. They wanted us to collaborate to co-create some vegan granola pies for the event. She makes granola. I love baking pies (remember last week, when I posted two: Almond Butter Pie and Banana Cream?). So we met up at Java to compare and let ideas flow. Granted we were there for an hour and a half and only 20 minutes, maybe, did we talk about pies. That’s the beauty of collaboration, you get to explore other avenues, and have conversations with like-minded individuals. I worked up this little beauty that I am writing about. And we met again Monday at Cathy’s to experiment some more. Collaboration is fun. These dabblings have me blown away. If I continue on this path, what does the world hold? How much more you can accomplish when you team up! And I just remembered the collaboration I have with my cousin Beth: A BeYOUtiful World. Exploring and empowering women to believe in their own beauty. Work together. Contribute a positive energy to the world. It is full of infinite possibilities.
Now since the granola is Cathy’s, I will link to a Paleo granola recipe that you can use in place. Enjoy!!! We are going to bake them into little cast iron skillets for the actual dinner. Maybe give that a try.
Vegan Granola Apple Pie
- 1 1/2 cup Paleo granola (<—–click this link)
- 1/8 cup organic coconut oil
- 1/4 cup maple
- 3 small to medium sized farm-fresh local apples
- 1 tbsp cinnamon
- 2 tbsp organic coconut sugar
- 1/3 cup maple
- 2 tbsp organic tapioca flour
- 1/4 tsp nutmeg
- 1 tsp vanilla
Let’s Make it Happen: Process the crust ingredients. Pat into greased individual pie pans or cast iron skillets. Bake at 350 for a bit while you prepare the filling.
Thinly slice the apples. I like my to be like paper-thin. Stir with the remaining ingredients. Spoon into the crust. I took the apple slices on top and created a spiral effect. Place back in the oven and bake for an hour. Remove from the oven and allow to cool and set up for a few hours. EAT!
Coincidentally my other collaborator Julie tasted this for me. She lives downstairs in my apartment building so I ran one down to her when I took my laundry down. She said it was tasty and dynamic with flavors and very filling.
So step out of the comfort zones. Work with others who ignite your creativity, who generate inspiration when you’re together. Co-create. Collaborate. Say yes to help. Open up. Allow others in. And stay open.