Quit Playing Small

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So I love this quote.

Last month, my rad cousin Jacki invited me to do some game changing Igolu sessions. It was completely empowering. Not only did it connect me better to myself, goals and dreams, but it tied me to a group of really strong, game-changing, goal-getting women.

Our first call I was so nervous.

My reactive thoughts were telling me, “who are you to be on this call? A little baker from Indiana.” I listened to the other powerhouse women introduce themselves, and I thought, “holy shit.” And then Jacki said, “Just know you are meant to be here.”

My reactive below the line living voice was instantly shut down. And I thought of this quote. Which coincidentally, one of the other members posted in our group later that week. Something the Universe intended for me to hear and remember.

I have this conditioned habit of playing it small. Sometimes I tell myself I am trying to be humble, but that is bullshit frankly. I am doing what the quote above says.

And as I dove further into the sessions this popped up. This play it small. This inability to to not receive. Like a light dimming switch. But awareness is the key, catching myself. And being aware that I do this.

I am the first one to help, to volunteer, to want to cheer others up, to give compliments. I want to build others up, but there is a barrier when others do the same. I shut down. I act coy. I can’t maintain eye contact. It is weird. It is weird because I truly think I am awesome. Read my about section. That is truly how I feel. I am statements I rock. I am strong. And beautiful. And creative. And smart. And talented. And positive. And radiant. The list is on-going. There is a disconnect when someone else says it though. Where is that coming from? And so I teach myself to shift. Take the compliment Brittany. Take the upgrade. Remember. Remember this quote. Give it out and take it. You are enough. Boom, that sentence is critical. 

When we did our interview homework, it really opened this up wide. Gaining perspective on how others see you is empowering. Because I realized I am pretty hard on myself. Because the people who love me. Who know me, had the best things to say. They think I am capable of anything. I am full of possibility. What can I master in my lifetime? Anything. Damn, that is empowering. And it is true. But like the quote, we all are. Believe it. Embody it. Know what you want. Know how you want to feel. Set goals. And go for them. Dream bigger. Be happy. Shine on. And know you deserve them. Allow yourself to shine. And create space for others to as well. But do that inside work first.

Take the upgrade. Let out your inner bad ass. Flex those creative muscles. Let that light shine. Be a game changer. Embrace your unique, unprecedented self. Live above the line. Create goals with soul. And let them be Big!

 

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